Eat Your Heart Out!

I talked to a former neighbor who is now residing in Wisconsin on Facebook early this afternoon. She married an American thus she is now living there. She asked about my fiance’ and saw his photo. She told me silly things since then. I find some amusing though some of what she said did get me into thinking. I know she was right but what can I say, I do believe this is my fate and what God wanted for me. Well, not unless there will still things that will happen in the future that would make me realize that this is not the thing I’ve been wanting in the long run.

I’ve been feeling anxious and worried today and what came to my mind earlier this afternoon is to look for a quote online about worrying. There were numerous quotes to choose from but I chose this one among all and posted it on my FB wall.

How I wish it is that simple but it is simply not. Things has not been good in my part of the world as well as the things that we’re into right now with my fiance’ from halfway across the world. How I wish this will just all end in a blink of an eye. I’m tired of worrying about it. I really am and how I wish I can just put a halt to all of this. Wishy wish wish…

After that tumultuous Thursday night of having difficulty in breathing, I am feeling a lot better now. I still do cough from time to time but no more congested lungs for me, and no more sleepless nights too. That cough was my worst so far. It was my first time to have experienced such bad congestion and because of that, I had to use the nebulizer which is my first time too. That’s how bad I was feeling that day that I resorted to such.

But I’m on my way to recovery now and I couldn’t be more thankful. Being sick is the last thing on my list but it happens. And it happened during the time when I am already taking vitamins. Isn’t that ironic? Oh well…

I am referring to my friend, a former colleague whom I haven’t seen for a long time now. We just finished chatting on Facebook and it’s nice to hear from her again. We are always having fun whenever we talk because we always kid each other – one thing that we both missed being together.

It’s one of our former colleague’s birthday today and we both hope that there will be a party and we’ll be invited so we’ll see each other again. We’re hoping on that but looks like there will be nada since it’s already late in the afternoon and we haven’t received any invitation yet. Hee hee. Nah, I don’t think there will be any party since the birthday girl thinks she’s already too old for a party. Well, I am pretty sure we will both see each other some other time. But when will that be? Only time will tell.

And that is because I am still sick. I’ve been like this for like three days now. It started with colds for a day then I had cough after that. Dry cough that is giving me difficulty breathing most especially on Friday night. My lungs were congested and my breathing has this whistling sound which I think is because my air passages were blocked. I didn’t have a decent sleep on Friday night because of that. I felt relief yesterday after using a nebulizer but still, I am having dry cough until now. I’ve taken meds too but it seems like it didn’t do nada.

I’m getting tired of this sickness because coughing gives me stomach pains and headaches too. I know I will get better soon but when. Only time will tell, I guess.